To everyone who expressed concern or sadness or outrage or support or anger or incredulity over my post the other day . . .
Thank you.
The truth is not nearly as dramatic as some of you seem to believe.
I would like to try to write something that is not Pretty All True.
I would like to try to write a book.
Not a collection or a reworking of my old posts . . . a book of new stories.
I have no idea if that is something I can get published.
Maybe it is not.
But I figure the worst-case scenario is that in the end, I have written a book.
I would like to try to write that book.
I intended to start writing that book over the summer. I intended to start writing that book when the girls went back to school. Every day, I intend to start writing that book.
A few times, I have started that book.
But then every day, I need a post.
And every day I hit “publish.”
And I am back to zero.
Not zero, exactly.
I am back to page one.
I cannot seem to stop posting, because I worry that you will stop reading. If you stop reading, then there is no point to Pretty All True. If you stop reading, then there will be no one to read a book I might eventually finish writing. If no one will read the theoretical book, then why bother trying to write it? So I should stay on Pretty All True . . . except that is not where I want to stay forever . . . and so I need to try to do something else. Maybe I should write that book. But in order to write a book, I need to stop posting everything I write. But if I post less often, then . . .
And on and on and on.
It has been said that I worry too much.
Duh.
I have been driving Mark insane, in case you were wondering.
My life is more than writing.
I am a wife and a mom and a friend and a daughter and a woman with things to do.
I have a limited amount of time to devote to writing, and it turns out I also have a limited amount of creative energy available to me most days.
So I am directing some of my time and attention elsewhere for a while.
I will post here when I am able.
That may be twice a week. That may be five times a week. I am not sure yet.
I only know that I need the freedom to NOT post when I am busy with other things.
Now, I am aware that I am the one who imposed this posting schedule on myself. I wanted to get into the habit of writing every day. I now write every day.
I need to break myself of the habit of sharing every day.
I love you guys.
I love Pretty All True.
But I need to make some changes.
So to everyone who checked on me.
To everyone who cared.
Thank you.
Kris
