January 2015
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I broach a subject with Mark about which I am feeling vulnerable.

Mark immediately rises to the occasion by saying something insensitive.

I cock my head, which is a clear sign that I am annoyed, “What did you just say?”

Mark repeats the insensitive thing in a slightly louder and clearer voice, as though …Head-cock

    Opaque-eyed attentive

    So the other evening, I was coughing (because I have some minor asthma issues associated with my latest bout of seasonal allergies), sniffing (because allergies), crabby and convinced that I was fat and ugly and also possibly dying of bloat-cancer (because I had my period), bleeding and cramping (because I had my period), and …Opaque-eyed attentive

    Venomous pronged hug

    I walk down into the basement office where Mark is working on his computer, “Alright, the girls are in bed, and they want you to come up and hug them goodnight. Neither of them is happy, by which I mean that they are both quite hysterical with rage. Please do not engage the girls …Venomous pronged hug

    A bit of sleighted hand

    I stand beside Mark and stare into the mirror. I sigh, “I just want some magic.”

    He finishes brushing his teeth and spits into the sink, “What are you talking about?”

    Leaning forward to examine the tiredness in my eyes, I whisper, “I just want something to happen. I just want magic. I have …A bit of sleighted hand

    I’m crushing your head

    Sometimes, I am just not in the mood.

    Mark just talks through these sometimes as though he does not realize that in my head I am holding up pinchy fingers and crushing him out of my life.

    We are driving, alone together in the car, and Mark is talking and I am not listening …I’m crushing your head